Saturday, February 22, 2014

Claire's "New" Room

Well I decided a little late to decorate the nursery for our "new" baby.  Claire will be 7 months old on the 28th, and she finally got some new decorations in her room!

There was nothing wrong with it before really, but my tastes change by the second... so her old room/Natalie's old room just wasn't doing much for me anymore.  

Even before I got some new stuff in there, there were some differences between her room and the room the way it was when it was Natalie's.  I took the two white Expedit shelves out of there quite a while ago and swapped those for the black one that was in our living room.  I LOVE the white ones in the living room, but kinda hate the black one in Claire's room... But, there isn't much I can/will do it about it for now.  Also, we got a new rug in the living room a few months ago, so we moved the old living room rug into Claire's room, and the rug that was in there onto the back porch.  Again, I like the other rug on the back porch but kinda hate the old living room rug being in Claire's room.  I'll live, but having stuff like that just really drives me nuts.  It's bad... and unnecessary for it to bother me as much as it does.

Anyways, here are a couple of quick pictures of the room when it was Natalie's:

(My pictures were so much better for everything Natalie related it seems.  Hmm.  It would probably help if these new yellow curtains would stay open.  They refuse to.)


Ok, these pictures kind of make me hate it.  It's a little less hate-able in real life.  But I've done too much to go back now :) It will keep changing I'm sure, but that's the way it's going to look for a while at least!

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Natalie's First and Second Year Slideshows

I made a video last year for Natalie's first birthday and never posted it.  I was reminded yesterday that I had started a video for her second birthday and never finished it... so I finished it last night!  A month and a half late, but it's done!

Here is her first year's video:

And second:

I can't believe how much this girl has grown over the past year.  It is making me pretty ridiculously emotional, honestly.  When I was working on it last night she would walk over to watch some of the videos with me as I went through them, and I kept making comments to her about how cute she was.  I was also making comments to Michael about it making me insanely sad that she's grown up so much. He was like "You have another one right here!" and pointed at Claire who was laying on the floor staring at me adorably.  It's true, but not the same.  Little baby Natalie... She was amazing.  She still is, but you know what I mean.  

Finally finishing this video was just what I needed.  I am not always the most patient person in life, and Natalie can definitely be frustrating... but going through old photos and videos was like taking a big giant chill pill and also a pretty huge slap in the face.  I will never ever ever again have her at the age that she's at right now, and I can't get those old days back.  So I'm going to kiss her and hug her and enjoy her as much as possible.  I'm going to try my very hardest to always make her feel as loved as possible. She is seriously an amazing girl.  So smart and silly and beautiful and just perfect.  Yes she can be crazy and throw fits and act like any other two year old... but she is mine and I love love love love love the crap out of her.

These two little girls of mine own my heart and make my life amazing.  They are the biggest blessings ever and I hope that they know how much we love them. 

I'm seriously considering just letting this house turn into the biggest pig sty ever just so I can sit and stare at these girls and hope that they'll stop growing up on me.

I am so insanely grateful for this life and family of mine.  Ugh.  My heart hurts... in a pretty amazing way.